My mental health started degrading more since the lockdown started. I found more ecstasy with my life when I was busy outside of home, as in going to college, being with friends and living an independent life. Ever since this lockdown happened, I started to have anxiety attacks and it made me feel more empty and alone. I thought I wouldn’t survive this pandemic even though I wasn’t sick physically with the virus, I was mentally sick.
Day by day, I started to feel miserable of myself and I started hating myself for not being able to have the willpower to fight this illness. Even though I know it’s not new to me because I have been having it since I was young, this time, it got worse. I started to lose interest in studying and stopped my hobbies, which is dancing and writing. One month passed by, and I was still struggling.
But things changed quickly one day. It all started because of a video that I saw on YouTube, a girl who shared her testimony on how God changed her and came to her life. Well, I have a good relationship with God but I always tend to lose my grip and walk on my own. I was leaning on my own understanding.
It was at that moment that I decided that I need to wake up and pray as much as possible. Every morning and night, I read the Bible, prayed constantly and thanked God for his immense love, and it made me feel more calm and peaceful. I started to forget about my emptiness, each day passed by, I could feel the bliss in my soul and mind, and ever since, that ecstasy is something I can never move away from.
Even today, I’ll be going through the same routine. I’m so thankful to that girl and always will be.
The link to the video is below. Please watch and be blessed!
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4CuX8sqByl8&list=LL&index=2&t=4s
Milleni H Chisho
Class 12
Tetso College
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